The last few weeks I have posted about my sweet Pop being diagnosed with cancer, then a fast decline with the cancer, and last week I asked for prayers of healing for him. Well after my post last week on Monday, the next day I decided to not go to the hospital after being there every day since he was admitted three weeks ago. I got a call Tuesday afternoon while we were in a movie that he had peacefully been called Home. I had a sigh of relief, then an overwhelming sadness flooded my body. This is the first person in my life that I loved so dearly and so closely to pass in our family. So for me, this was extremely hard (as it was for the rest of our family). I am not familiar with death nor have a dealt with it very often in my life. Mind you, being pregnant doesn't make this any easier...crazy hormones. So this week was about our family celebrating my sweet Pop. We received so much love, from close family friends, to friends that just care, to people that we don't talk to often. We received insane amounts of food (I partly blame the growth of my belly on this one!), hugs, calls, flowers, and support. We cried at the reality of our loss, but rejoiced the life he had and the legacy he left behind. Starting a new week is hard. And I am not sure if I want to because its a week that we will have to live life without him, but we will. Even if I would rather see him holding our sweet little boy in a short 4 months and celebrating one more Christmas with him. But we will live it to the fullest. Just like the example my Granna is doing for our Pop. She is strong you guys, she celebrates the life she lived with him even in the moments she has tears running down her face. I only hope to be half the woman she is when I am her age. She is amazing. As I approach week 20, with a sad but hopeful and trusting heart, I know that our sweet boy with know and love Pop even if he didn't have the chance to physically meet him!
In news of baby and belly and all of the stuff you actually probably came here to read. Things are good. I am actually starting to feel pregnant! My stomach has made its appearance this week with the assistance of A LOT of eating and of course a growing pea. When I bend over, I can feel something in there. There is ALWAYS a grunt assisted with the bending over these days. I love to sit on the floor with legs curled up to my chest to watch TV and be on my laptop. Yeah...that wont be happening for much longer! ;-) Okay, here's the bump...
This week, baby is the size of a: mango!
Due date: January 17th, 2014
How far along: 19 (1/2) weeks
Next appointment: September 3rd
Gender: ITS A BOY!!!!
Total weight gain/loss: Who knows! I will find out next appointment!
Stretch marks: None!
Swelling: Feet after a shooting a wedding and I noticed my hands swelling this weekend from being outside!
Maternity clothes: This week a belly has definitely grown and its noticeable (finally!)! Regular shirts and tops are starting to get smaller...ESPECIALLY in the bust area. (Holy moly!) So I am sure I will be venturing into all maternity clothes soon.
Belly button: Normal
Sleep: Sleep was so great this week because of how exhausted we were from our week.
Food cravings/aversions: Not much of anything. Today I craved pickles...so I took a little jar of hamburger slices to my aunt's. And while we floated in the pool, I ate my pickles...and drank some of the jar. HA! Funny!
Movement: SO much movement, I still cannot believe thats a little baby in there moving around! Last week I felt him mostly in my lower belly and this week I have started to feel him right around my belly button! Also have felt him a few times with my hand and as soon as I call Heath over to try to feel he decides to fall asleep!
Labor signs: Nope
What I miss: Nothing really at all!
What I'm loving: We went to look for nursery furniture for little man this weekend when we had a little downtime one morning. Crazy that we will start on the nursery soon. If you know me, you know I am so excited! Just not sure where to start...maybe once I have a better direction I will post a blog with ideas and colors and such on what we are going for!
What I'm looking forward to: First, being HALF WAY THERE on THURSDAY!!! Second, our anatomy ultrasound a week from Tuesday! Excited because its a 'fancy' ultrasound and we will get to see our sweet boy for longer than just a few minutes. I will probably wait to update our 20 week update after that appointment so I can update you all about it!
Best moment this week: Well, not exactly a 'good' week with my Pop passing away besides knowing he isn't suffering anymore and is way better off not here as much as I selfishly wish he could be here.
Milestones: Not really any major milestones, just one week closer to meeting our sweet boy! I am starting to feel a difference when I am bending over and getting dressed. There is a growing belly and it has just started to appear all the sudden! Amazing.
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